urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77 Jenny Jenny 2007-08-02T01:46:51Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:25451 2007-08-02T01:46:51Z 2007-08-02T01:46:51Z so i guess i wont see anyone for awhile. at least not that often. its cool though. im not heartbroken about not seeing the same people day in and day out for a month. ill be around in small doses. in other news, camping was a blast. still pending on the living situation. :(<br /><br />tomorrow begins football. yea for me urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:25308 2007-07-15T19:55:47Z 2007-07-15T19:55:47Z work. the story of my fucking life. i shouldnt complain though, i ask for it. i want to move out of this apartment now. but im dreading actually moving out. its gonna suck and take FOREVER to clean and pack. im excited to live with kristen and kare. it should be a good year.<br /><br />2 more weeks of summer left. thats it. and im back at eastern.<br /><br />no one special in my life right now. and im perfectly happy with that. ive grown so much this year and found out a lot about myself, and others. im glad to be where i am right now. having fun and not depressed, at last. ive made a bunch of new friends this summer. its a pretty good time. <br /><br />and now i have to drag my hung over ass to work, again. awesome. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:24876 2007-06-05T02:01:11Z 2007-06-05T02:01:11Z so it begins. june 07 starts us off...<br /><br />basically same old stuff...DPW, Emag, friends, drinking, etc.<br /><br />new people in my life. finally something to make me happy. sincerely good. i like it.<br /><br />ive sadly lost contact from some. at least more than usual. things change though, i guess. <br /><br />roommates are alright. i feel like the middle man though. itll be fine. it always is with those girls. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:24568 2007-05-04T16:33:23Z 2007-05-04T16:33:23Z man...its funny how something can fuck up everything real quick. oh well. im done making the effort. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:24121 2007-04-27T14:10:04Z 2007-04-27T14:10:04Z school is done. amazing.<br /><br />in other news...<br /><br />i think the only word to describe the way i feel is betrayed. its a damn shame. but what can ya do?<br /><br />i Hate to know that if i never called, we would never talk, or hang out. bummer. people have their own priorities. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:24044 2007-04-22T21:34:32Z 2007-04-22T21:34:32Z so 21 is definitely all its cracked up to be. after 4 strenuous days of drinking im calling it quits, until next week of course. im exhausted. softball is my life right now. ive spent at least 15 hrs at school this weekend. WEEKEND. wtf? its what i signed up for tho, and i wouldnt give it up for anything. <br /><br />i miss people. i feeling adrift from my non emu friends. lost time will be made up...just gotta make it through this wednesday. almost there kid. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:23710 2007-04-11T23:57:05Z 2007-04-11T23:57:05Z its for the best i feel. its hard to let go of some things but it has to be done. the truth is, i have felt this way since it started, but sometimes we don't always do whats right for us. im glad things are sorted out.<br /><br />i need to focus these next two weeks. like honestly buckle down and crank out some mad end of the year projects, finals, papers, etc. before summer can begin. im super excited for the army party. i just bought like the tightest shirt of all time. im not going to cut it tho as i initially planned (thanks to some much appreciated male suggestions). i think kristen is coming, as well as much emu AT buds. theyre wild so it should be awesome.<br /><br />also if i havent rambled on about enough before ill do it again. april 19th you could not come soon enough. i fear that weekend will be...interesting/out of control. i just want to be able to go to applebees and get a beer with my dinner, or go to sticks w/ wilk and nick and actually drink. also when my dad gives me a beer i wont having my mom breathin down my neck about all this "setting a bas example" B.S. A bad example would be actually buying for my siblings, not drinking 1 harmless beverage. anyways peace out luvs. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:23339 2007-04-10T17:54:43Z 2007-04-10T17:54:43Z semester plzzzzzz be over already. i just want to be done doing homework studying blah blah. <br /><br />i just renewed by drivers license. how exciting.....!!!!!!!!!! 21 here i come. 9 more days.<br /><br />livejournal, you bore me lately. go away urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:23079 2007-04-06T23:49:50Z 2007-04-06T23:49:50Z i am beyond busy. at school 7 days this wk. oh well. its worth it.<br /><br />jackass boy fucked over my roommate so bad i cant even see straight. i hate seeing my friends in so much emotional pain. i know what it feels like to be absolutely crushed by someone you have feelings for. its not so fun. it fucks with your mind real bad. her case is different tho. not worse. just different. <br /><br />we got revenge tho. like we fucked his shit up real bad. oops. i dont feel bad at all. he deserves everything we did and what is to come. man chicks can be evil. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:22903 2007-03-29T20:32:52Z 2007-03-29T20:32:52Z I have accomplished a lot today. pat on the back for me. Got up at 10:30 went to practice. We were done by 2. I have been in the computer lab ever since kicking out my part of my kines. project, eng. paper, nutrition papers, and even got a head start on my assessment end of the year project. i for some reason am master typer today. like going a million words per minute. not that fast, but close. :)<br /><br />mel leaves monday. thats pretty shitty. i didnt realize it was going to be so soon. you will be missed chick.<br /><br />i picked up 2 days this weekend so now i work fri-sun. good thing cause mommy needs to pay some bills. <br /><br />im excited for saturday. im glad john's back in the game. it hasnt been the same w/o him. im ready for some jungle juice. and beer. good times. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:22540 2007-03-27T01:35:02Z 2007-03-27T01:35:02Z bored as shit... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:22395 2007-03-26T14:13:12Z 2007-03-26T14:13:12Z im feeling a familiar twinge of heart ache. it happens i guess. <br /><br />this week sucks, particularly today. i have a take home essay final due in sociology at 5:30. and i havent started it yet. oops gotta get on that. <br /><br />good weekend. john looked awesome at his show. im glad i went. it was definitely an eye opening experience. mucho respect and props. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:22182 2007-03-22T19:02:39Z 2007-03-22T20:15:37Z school keeps me busy. friends/family keep me sane. i feel like im running around 24/7 all day. back and forth to school. its demanding,yes. and yea 17 credits + 20 hrs a wk in the clinic is stressful. especially when i cant go home and literally stay here for 12 hrs. all i want to do is maybe chill w/roomies or friends when i get home. do some hw. go to bed. i cant work more than 3 days a week so i am struggling for money. like it'll be real tihgt these next few months. and half the time im so tired i dont want to even go to work.<br /><br />its worth it though. i have nothing to complain about. i have a great family.i have great friends, a job, a place to live. im pursuing an education doing what i love and happy to say that im learning a lot. so ill just stop there. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:21535 2007-03-21T02:22:10Z 2007-03-21T02:22:10Z finally. we actually went grocery shopping. a nice night with hookah, hw, and cooking dinner with roommates. im super tired tho. too many late nights. im busy again tomorrow. school from 9-12. softball 130-6. and aod meeting at 730. then...dont know yet. hang out with friends maybe. <br /><br />back to hw. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:21412 2007-03-19T14:12:18Z 2007-03-19T14:12:18Z headache. go away urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:21217 2007-03-18T18:41:33Z 2007-03-18T18:41:33Z good times. sort of. it sucks being sober when everyone else is wasted. whatever. <br /><br />be more accomadating please. thanks.<br /><br />no probs getting home. no cops. doesnt matter. i was stone sober. stop doing things wrong. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:20876 2007-03-16T14:02:08Z 2007-03-16T14:02:08Z plz week be over. im sick of you. i hate staying up late for a pointless movie and having to wake up 5 hrs later and take an oral practical while everyone else is happily sleeping. like i said. i want this week to be over. its annoying the shit out of me.<br /><br />i just want it to be saturday. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:20511 2007-03-14T04:53:11Z 2007-03-14T04:53:11Z weekend was great. technically itended sunday, but i feel as tho monday slipped its way in there to round of the nights of many parties.<br /><br />this week is gonna be tough at school. mostly bc i am there everyday. if not for class, then for my team. i love it and all, it just tires you out.<br /><br />i hate emagine. i hate cliques. especially those that i am not welcome in. whateve. ill find something better to do. i always do. god my managers are retarded. senseless. <br /><br />i love that i pretty much have their jobs at my fingertips. but they dont know it. <br /><br />anyways. weekend should be good. probably chill fri.at home or something with roomies. work at 8 am. get off at 4. start drinking. <br /><br />sounds like a good plan to me.<br /><br />weekend plz come faster. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:20392 2007-03-08T23:59:46Z 2007-03-08T23:59:46Z 300 was amazing. best movie ive seen in a long time. <br /><br />in other news im in the middle of nutrition but decided to give myslef a 10 mintute break. so now im in the comp. lab. real nice jen.<br /><br />party tomorrow. im excited. <br /><br />im super tired. not sure why. i got up at 11. it might have to do with the fact that i havent eaten a thing today. cant wait till i get home. i need to prepare better for long days and pack lunch. i thought i would have a break but softball chicks take too damn long. so straight to class i went. <br /><br />in other news (again) TOB's lack of get togethers is pretty shitty. there's nothing to do thurs nights. we'll make our own fun. or something. <br /><br />back to class. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:20112 2007-03-05T15:13:56Z 2007-03-05T15:13:56Z 8 am class. back to reality.<br /><br />over this break i have accomplished much, depending on how you look at things. i have...<br /><br />-watched every TBS movie that has probably ever aired<br />-caught up on my online connections such as facebook myspace email<br />-Strengthened Friendships<br />-finally discovered the difference between dependable/true friends and low level/not worth my time "friends"<br />-learned how to play Scrabble (my new fave game)<br />-danced practically naked with other girls<br />-witnessed friend test out a "frozen lake" (we are not intelligent) :)<br />-drank more busch light than i thought was humanly possible<br />-participated in a much needed massage train<br />-ate delicious G's pizza. <br />-chose to not go out sunday night (a very responsible decision), but was forced to drink hideous malt liquor anyways :(<br /><br />all in all good times. would love to so it again. summer please hurry up. no wait, april 19th please hurry up. :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:19739 2007-02-28T21:02:12Z 2007-02-28T21:21:11Z i need to quit emagine. that would solve pretty much all problems that exist in my life. i still want to remain friends with some but the benefits of this idea are prime...<br /><br />-no more working for near minimum wage after being an employee for 3 yrs.<br />-no more managers that think that they are way more important than they really are<br />-no more dealing with people that i dont care to see but have to, due to working at emagine<br />-no more dealing with hideous, annoying, greedy customers <br />-no fighting about work w/ people i care about <br />-no dealing w/ that brown haired gril that watches 3 movies per day and never gets refills, but instead orders a whole new PC and Pop, after i explained the refill policy<br />-no being denied a job in bar, when i know more about alcohol then 40 yr old employees.<br />-more importantly no more fighting with best friend at emag. parties cause its the only time it happens. <br /><br />oh yea and my fave...<br />-no more almost getting fired for doing what supervisors and managers do consistantly. yea dont deny the fact that supervisors and managers give away food (not to say i did give anything away in case someone who thinks theyre going to get me in trouble, but arent going to b/c im not that dumb, is reading this) literally all the time. i wonder if thats ok with chris ruth and paul. hmmmm. interesting. maybe ill ask them. since ive literlly been told to make food for employees bf, relative, etc. and told not to charge. oh wait, i wouldnt do that, bc im not a back stabbing bitch.<br /><br />so i would def. say the bad outweighs the good. in this case urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:19567 2007-02-28T20:35:32Z 2007-02-28T20:35:32Z am i a good person? do i not possess the qualities of a good friend? i dont know. i thought i did. i am told that i am. i try to be. <br /><br />i have a large lump in my throat. i hope things work out. it makes me feel horrible. why do i care so much about other people and there happiness? why? <br /><br />why dont people treat me the same? i feel like being selfish would help me, but its not in me. other people worry and bitch about there feelings and problems and shit all the fucking time. i cant.<br /><br />i cant not think about if I did something wrong. <br /><br />i need to either stop getting drunk, or stop getting drunk with certain people. the latter sounds like the new plan of the week. dumb shit always fucking happens. not with roommates tho. somehow getting along with them is so easy i dont even think about it. <br /><br />ok, either im severely PMSing or Im genuinely worried and upset. ill tell you after i pop like 4 Midol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:19353 2007-02-24T20:21:51Z 2007-02-24T20:21:51Z why? theres nothing else to say. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:19075 2007-02-19T15:20:00Z 2007-02-19T15:20:00Z lets start from scratch. focus on what and who is important and nothing else. after all, what else should matter? this week, school and work come first. If I have to get up early (which is everyday but thurs.) dont go out. i'll always have time for close friends, regardless of homework. that is already a known fact, for i shouldn't even have to state it. i need to keep close relationships intact. without them i am nothing.<br /><br />moral decision needs to be made. how do you tell someone you think they are completely off track. heading down a path that has no chance for a good ending. surround yourself with those you are prepared to be influenced by. I have learned that over the years and am starting to realize how important that is as i get older. I surround myself with many diff. types with different personalities, habits, and lifestyles. It is those that have helped to keep my head above the water in times of need that i appreciate most and will remain close with. <br /><br />it is funny but at the same time enlightening to see how people will react in different situations. i know it seems obvious, but i never really took it to heart before (mainly cause i am not the type to dwell) but you really know who your true friends are when you are in a dilemma. for ex. off an emotional breakdown. or as simple in something as simple as being the d.d. for the night, or helping someone out of a bad situation. why i keep close relationships w/friends that arent there for me(in a productive way) i do not know. why cant i get that through my head?<br /><br />in other news, my debate over what to do over rays friends still haunts me. i think that my not standing up as soon as it happened is pathetic. i honestly thought that if i got in *****'S drunk ass face at the time, he might have actually hit me. who cares tho? its worth it i feel. now im pissed at myself. should i still confront, i dont know. im not in the mood to start trouble, so i might have to confront the GF, who is my friend. i dont care, that changes nothing. <br /><br />i am not afraid of confrontation so i think it def. needs to be done. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jayd77:18764 2007-02-18T16:08:43Z 2007-02-18T16:08:43Z always follow ur instincts. lesson learned. unfortunately not for some. well it doesnt matter if the lesson was learned or not, theyre fucked either way. <br /><br />i need to start coming home more and having me time. its a rare event. i dont know y i choose to hang with the same people over and over again when it usually ends up being either boring, pointless, or risky. i need to expand my horizon and meet people that i dont work with. i love a few people at emagine, but im getting sick of the repetitiveness. <br /><br />id love nothing more than to just chill at home for the next solid week. no parties (until the weekend of course) or driving my ass all the way out to novi 5 days a week. altho i want to start hanging out w/ others i definitily want to be low key.<br /><br />there are some people that i could chill w/ everyday and not get tired of. its just cool man. i dont know how elso to describe it. so lets do that. come over and hang and watch tv drink a couple and do homework. im pretty sure that sounds like a good plan.